So recently...like, I've felt lonely. Not like I'm alone and by myself and lonely...I'm around people...constantly. I'm lonely in the sense that I need someone. I need a person. I need a friend. I need a boyfriend. I need something. I need someone to be a goof around...to talk about music about...to talk about the future with...to watch movies with...to hug..to cuddle..to anything. And I know that once I stop looking I'll find 'the one'...or is that just complete bullshit? Something that someone who could never find someone just made up so they didn't feel so bad about themselves. I don't fucking know. I know I have a good guy friend...but to be 100% honest...right now, I don't see it getting serious. He is a really good friend...but I just don't see myself with him...I like talking to him...but our conversation never goes anywhere. I would like it too, but he always turns it to me...which isn't a bad thing...but I don't know. I know I should be happy I have him...and I am! But I just. don't. know. And I know I have you and Katie, but you're both super busy...and I totally get that, so don't feel bad. But I just need someone like you two here. In D-Town. Which I haven't found yet. And maybe I won't find that person here. Or until after school. Or even when I find a job. I know its bad thinking, but sometimes I just wanna push "fast forward" until I find that guy. Or friend. Or whatever. So until then, I'm just going to sit here and watch Grey's Anatomy. Or listen to music. Or sleep. Or eat.
Whatever it is...I'll get through it.
Whatever it is...I'll get through it.
